The front that goes up
It’s blinding
Reminds me of Jonah
That rough n tough exterior
That “I don’t give a fuck”
It’s wasn't true with him, and it’s not true with you
And I know because I’ve seen it
That warm, gooey interior
The thing y’all refuse to show the world
Because you were taught it’s synonymous with weakness
Pish posh
I’ve seen it
I’ve seen a real smile, those sweet little lines next to your eyes already so young
Heard a real laugh
Peeked my eyes open when yours were closed as you kissed me passionately
I’ve seen it
Yet you continue to try to hide it
Big fat cinder block wall thrust up
Why?
I don’t feel like I deserve that this far in
And it scares me honestly to get that today
Scares me to pieces because we are this far in
To say what you said there
Alright I’ll dish it back
Don’t like it so much when it comes back at you, do you?
So take everything with a grain of salt
I love being around you
But the you that isn’t the hard ass
I love being around the sweet you, soft you
Sweet and soft it sums it up - the smiling, lovey dove-y you
And I know you can’t be this all the time, no one can
But for the love of God, please don’t bullshit me
Please don’t put up that wall
Especially after Friday
Each day going deeper and deeper
Hoping for you to get stronger and stay softer
But you packed a mirror in your pocket for the journey
And keep fucking deflecting
It hurts I won’t lie
And I know we didn’t unlock the next level in the game
And we both know that we shouldn’t
If this is my heart now
I can’t imagine what it would be like after Level 100
Past shredded, past pummeled
Just gone. Missing. MIA. POW. Scares me.
And maybe that’s where you are! Scared.
Well guess what sugar? I’m scared too.
Cove Girl 